One Month to Go

Okay, reality has slapped me in the face tonight and now I can't sleep. Nathan will begin his job in D.C. - one month from tomorrow. 30 DAYS!!! We have done nothing - I repeat nothing to prepare for our departure from Utah. Our goal is that the kids and I will join Nathan in D.C. the beginning of January. If this is to happen, we need to contact the movers, have a garage sale and prepare the house to be rented - indefinitely. Nathan and I have resolved ourselves to sit down tomorrow and develop a game plan. Why does this not seem real to me yet?? Why do I think that the moving fairies will magically take care of everything for me?

Nathan told me that there have been times for him when the plane lands in a new country and he thinks to himself "I don't want to be in this country, why am I getting off this plane here??". Okay, No - I don't want to hear that - he is my rock, my mister adventure who finds the good in any country, even the desert of Iraq - he can not tell me he has those thoughts because then I might think it's okay to have those thoughts and I cannot do that!! Don't panic, don't panic, don't PANIC!! I have that same feeling I get on the Tower of Terror at Disneyland when you know that the ride to the top has stopped and now your seat is going to drop out from underneath you and I am thinking to myself "I don't like to feel scared - why did I even get on this ride in the first place?" YIKES!!